To the doghouse

Almost seven months ago, Pierini Fitness composed a reflection showcasing his darker side as a jaded old man.  The composition can be viewed here: Go find less.

While it reflects my mindset when I’m in a stinking thinking mode, it’s not honorable behavior by any stretch of anyone’s imagination.  It may reflect the mindset of cantankerous and jaded old men who have an axe to grind with their wives and significant female others, but it isn’t a mindset that’ll get us to Heaven.

Mrs. Pierini Fitness recently stumbled across this reflection on my blog, and my ears have been ringing ever since.  It resulted in me being sent to the doghouse, again, rightfully so, and has given me time to reflect on how what I expressed in this reflection is at odds with the person I desire to be. 

There may be others who read this who took similar offense.  To all who did, I ask for your forgiveness and want you to know that the message I expressed is not my playbook by which I try to live my life.

But there were some truths in what I expressed.  Specifically, I said that a kind heart often co-exists deep within our psyche and soul if you’re willing to peel off the layers of thick skin we’ve grown over the years.  This is true, but our and my propensity to relapse to a lower level and undesirable behavior will always be there in the bowels of our old man minds.

So, what should we do? 

Be aware of this and pray for the strength to avoid relapse with a behavior that isn’t the kind and gentle older men that we strive to be.

Because this behavior is one that will, often, send us to the doghouse.

Pax Domini sit semper vobiscum